So I know I said this in my last post, but it’s worth repeating:
I’ve been really bad about blogging regularly.
There’s been so much going on lately and I’ve been spending much of my free time looking and applying for jobs in the Chicago area. I really want to move back there, but I simply cannot do it without definite employment. It’s just very time-consuming and a bit frustrating because I’m one of those people who actually takes the time to research the organizations to whom I’m sending my resume and I craft cover letters specifically suited to them. It takes forever, but I refuse to put my name on something I’m not proud of. I stand behind my cover letters and while the job search can be very frustrating (especially when employers don’t even take the time to send a mass email to all the losers like me who don’t get the job), I can at least feel comfortable knowing I’m putting my best foot forward 🙂
In other news, we’ve been crazy busy at the store. Wisconsin Quilt Expo is coming up in about two weeks and for those of you who don’t know, it’s kind of a big deal. Quilting related retailers from all over the country gather in Madison for a 3-day show and there are about 8 billion people who come (not really, obviously, but it’s something like 20,000, which is still a lot of people). We’re vending again this year and we are hoping to really feature my mom’s quilt designs and pattern line. She’s very talented (though she’d never admit it) and her patterns are quite popular with our clients, so we want to see how they go over with the larger Expo crowd. Anyway, it just means we’ve been busy finishing samples, packaging patterns, packing merchandise, and getting ready for the show. Oh, we also have a store to run. Oy vey.
In the middle of all that, I’ve also had one of my awesome, relentless sinus infections for… oh, 6+ months now. I’ve tried different antibiotics (found out I’m allergic to another one!), my neti pot, loading up on vitamins (Emergen-C makes me feel like I have super powers, but when it wears off I’m still sick), inhalers (nope), and antihistamines. I’ve also tried a gluten-free diet (TWICE! WORST THING EVER! (not really, but I just really, really, REALLY love my carb-y delicious bread and pasta)) to see if an allergy was causing the issues. I’ve done dairy-free before (also twice) and have come to the conclusion that it’s not a food allergy. I hate that nobody believes me because I’m just the patient and I don’t know anything (except my own health history and how I currently feel…). I did finally convince my doctor to refer me to an ENT and she did. I also convinced her to order the CT scan before my appointment with the ENT.
Let me back-track to explain something: I have already had 2 separate sinus surgeries: one the day before Thanksgiving 2004 (that was a fun holiday…) and one in August 2008 (please notice the 4-year gap between each of my previous episodes and my current one). The pattern has been the same each time: I start getting daily sinus headaches and I get a sinus infection that doesn’t go away with antibiotics. The doctors continue to prescribe antibiotics, trying different ones to find one that works (none of them work). Then they recommend allergy testing. Someone at some point will recommend a food allergy test so I go on some stupid diet that doesn’t change anything except to make my mood worse because I want my favorite foods, but I can’t have them. I eventually stop going to the doctor and just cope with the sinus infection and feel miserable for awhile. At some point, I convince someone to refer me to an ENT (or in the case of my first sinus surgery, I was just referred after they exhausted all other options). I have scans done and find out that surprise, surprise, my sinuses are effed up.
This time, I have to see a surgeon who specializes in revision septoplasties because I’ve already had 2, as well as a cyst removal from my left maxillary sinus cavity and widening of the opening to that cavity. The surgeon I’m going to see had his first available appointment on September 27. I scheduled my appointment on August 10. That’s 7 more weeks of living with this miserable sinus crap. Oh well, can’t do anything to change. Ah-ha, but I can do something to speed the process along! I knew that on September 27 I’d see the ENT, he’d feel my face and look in my nose and say that I should have a CT scan done. I’d get the scan and have a follow-up appointment some weeks after that (probably another 7). All-in-all, it would probably be 3-4 months (honestly, not exaggerating) before I got an answer. I just decided to skip ahead so I can have the scan in my hands when I see him next month, so I got my primary care doctor to order the scan. I had it done this morning and I asked them for a copy of it.
I got a call from my doctor late this afternoon telling me she received the results of my scan. She mumbles a lot and talks really fast, so I didn’t really catch everything she said, but I did hear “mucosal thickening” and I think something about narrowing of the airway. She said something else, too, but as I said… I didn’t hear everything.
Unfortunately, these things sound familiar to me from the last operation I had. Of course, I need to wait to see what the ENT says and I plan to ask him if I have any other options because frankly, I don’t feel like having sinus surgery every 4 years. I don’t want to another sinus surgery at all even if he has some magical fairy dust he can sprinkle while he’s in there. It’s expensive and PAINFUL and it blows (except your nose, ’cause you’re not allowed to blow it for like 2 weeks after the surgery). It’s seriously the most painful thing I’ve ever endured. The first night after my first surgery, I was sleeping in a chair because I was supposed to be sitting up and I woke up in the middle of the night, screaming because I was in so much pain. My face hurt so bad I couldn’t walk. Yeah. How are those two things related? I ended up crawling up the stairs, bawling for my mom (I was 17, gimme a break), who came running out of her room to try to console me. I had already maxed out the puny pain meds they’d given me (I think it was something insulting like Tylox). Eventually my mom dragged out the narcotics my dad had and she gave me half of one. I slept for like 12 hours. Anyway, my point is that it effing hurts. A LOT. And I don’t want to have another one.
Again, I may be jumping the gun, but I’m pretty nervous that I’m going to be needing another operation :-\ Good vibes for me?
Alrighty, well this has really turned into me complaining about my current health problem. Didn’t mean for it to turn into that, but there ya go. We have been enjoying our CSA box each week. We’ve gotten some sweet corn that, considering the extreme drought we’re in, we didn’t think we’d get this year. I’m not a corn-on-the-cob fan (not really a corn fan at all), but this sweet corn is SO GOOD. We’re also drowning in heirloom tomatoes from our own garden. So. Many. Tomatoes. They’re delicious, but I think my brother’s insane when he says he wants to double the crop for next year.
Alright, I’ll leave it there. Hope everyone’s doing well and… uh, yeah.